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Holy shit there is a man sitting in front of me that looks like Jude Law's Dr. Watson. Needless to say, LMAO. I saw him walk by me and almost instantly I started staring. It's hilarious because I was just watching Sherlock Holmes.

In other nerdtastic news. While I was going through the security check-point, I had to remove my coat and shoes, and as I walked through the metal detector the guard on the other side looks at me with a straight face and goes, "Live long and prosper." Almost instantly I was like :D <3 and he saluted me and I saluted him. lol. It was aaaaaamazing.

I had to throw away my fricking body spray because it was a 10 oz bottle of liquid. I'M ANGRY ABOUT THAT. HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO SMELL NICE NOW?! D:

So now I'm sitting at gate 9 in MCO waiting to board. I'm terribly sleepy and to be honest I feel sick as hell D:




And the security level is high apparently...so that probably means that pulling out my Death Note novel wouldn't be a good idea 8D

Sounds like the same old shit to me.

Nathan says he loves me, but he fucked Kelli when she was in New York, and I still love him so much.

Kenny says he's falling in love with me, and I do like him a lot, we get along beautifully.

Steven likes me, I'm sexually attracted to him but I don't want to be with him.

I love her more than anything in the whole world, and I can't do a damn thing about wanting to be with her.

Alex cares about me in a way I don't know how to react to nor do I understand it.

Mitch is in love with me, but he's a kid to me.

Derek wants to get into my pants, and I want to let him.






I don't know what the fuck to do any more.


'It's only love...'

Because I'm still really fucking hungover I'm going to highlight last night.

• Went to a cigar bar, had a cigar and some drinks with my parents.
• Went to a hip ultra lounge and had sexy drinks with my parents.
• Went to a sexy hip club (Best one in Orlando) and had more fucking drinks with my parents.
• Threw up for the first time ever from drinking in the bathroom of Orlando's hottest nightclub, with my Mom holding my hair back.
• Continued dancing and drinking until 2:30 A.M. with my parents.
• Got breakfast at 3 A.M. with my parents.
• Got home at 4:30 A.M. with my parents.

TL;DR my parents got me fucked up.

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Thanks mom and dad :D

ON A COMPLETELY RANDOM NOTE (maybe not so random if you know how my thought process is lols).

I FUCKING LOVE William Shatner, DeForest Kelley and Leonard Nimoy.


Oh yes. Yes I do. I don't care if they're older than my grandparents D:< Every time I watch ST and I see them on screen I'm genuinely happy.
Whenever I watch Con footage of them I'm all, "AW LOOKIT HOW GQMF THESE FUCKERS STILL ARE!"


I also smell of Lotus blossom oil and I love it :D

Had a bb-anxiety attack last night in which I decided to lop off about 4-6 inches of fried and dead hair last night. I love how short and curly my hair is, but at the same time it hurt cutting my hair off. Not physically obviously but it was like the last bit of Alex I had left to hold on to. QQ yeah get the fuck over it I know lol.

Going to the beach today and I'm really excited.

I'm worried that this month my bank account is going to be majorly negative. I have 6 dollars to my name and I'm still looking for a job, and I can't figure out how to fucking locate something on my phone's billing shit that'll stop a monthly billing and every time I call customer support they have no fucking clue what I'm talking about D:<


I need to get a new fucking bank anyways, BoA keeps fucking with my money :(



This would all be solved if I could find a damn job. lol.

I keep forgetting to upload pics of my delicious noms. So I'm gunna see if I can catch up with this week :)

Does it make me a bad person that I want to rape a man who is very clearly off limits in every sense of the damn word?

I hope not, because for once I'm going to throw care to the wind...again. :D




Wish me ballsy luck!

Ugh. I feel ridiculously sick right now.
My stomach hurts so badly and I'm tried as all hell. D:


I should have slept last night but I was too busy on Omegle looking for the GQMFs of ontd_startrek :D

It was well worth it.
Now I'm in the shop with my besty hating life because my stomach is killing me and I just want to sleep.
I need a nap. lols



GQMFS REPRESENT :D

a fucking unicorn.
A mythological creature.


Give me a man that looks like my GQMF Zachary Quinto, who is smart, has a wiry sense of humor like McCoy with the old school sex-charm of William Shatner and the humility of Leonard Nimoy -- Must be okay with me calling him Spock/Jim/Leonard/Bones/Sylar whilst in bed. Thank you.



( Boring bleh IRL stuff. )



My command uniform is almost done. I'm so fucking excited about it. I need to make it a little more snug on the hips. I can't waaaaait to finally wear it! I just need to find some good boots now lol. There goes my last fucking paycheck.


I'm going to wear my uniform out to see Star Trek in IMAX. I don't care if I go alone, I'm dressing up dammit. Maybe I can snag a cute boy?
Who am I kidding only fangirls like me are gonna go lol.

A data pad or a tricorder :D

Lolspocklol says wuuuuut.

I really love this picture. Leonard Nimoy is aaaaaaaaamazing. Even to this day. I want to meet him so badly :'( I swear to god I was born in the wrong decade. I missed out on the Beatles and Star Trek. But oh well, I'm a new age Trekkie lol.

-sigh- I need Trekkie friends D:

I'm getting to work on my active duty uniform xD WOO I'M SO EXCITED!

My phone got wet. My life is in shambles because my phone's screen will not work...

D:



Midsummer fire started! WOO >:3

This has been my breakfast, lunch, snack, and dinner for the past three days.
A super delicious pulled chicken chili made from scratch.
Featured in my favorite bowl - a Ratatouille bowl :)

Sorry about the crappy picture quality :(

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what sadness lies beyonds these young eyes
waiting for the magic that never came
searching for the answers
spiritual freedom, so close yet so far
whispering into the night
"Can someone help me please?"
how much longer can she hold on
what good could come from her hands
can't you see that they're red?
then she feels the burning heat
is it this monster called passion?
an angel in guise of a man
strong arms holding her soul down
before it's lost to the world
"Are you really mine?"
hesitant hands reach out to seek
parted lips barely even speak
clarity shines from his eyes
and so they seem to say
"I'm here to save you."
love has finally sprouted
taking full bloom at last
dreaming of the reasons
feeling pure and free again
there is so much in our young eyes

Dedicated to Alex Matthew Bring

My silly little poems and writings. Along with my childish doodles will be kept here.